My Life My Story

As I sit back my iPad in hand. I groan and murmured ughhh god. This is like my fifth attempt at a video for a survey web site. I always do this. Do like a hundred thousand takes (I’m not kidding) before the video is ready to publish. I shake my head as the reason becomes clear. On why it takes so long to make a video? The reason being my low self-esteem.

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Through-out my life my low self-esteem have played a role in my life. Putting big walls between relationships. Putting my dreams and what I love to the side. Putting my self worth at it’s lowest. “If you don’t love yourself no one will.” These words have hunted me through-out my life. As I went from relationship after relationship. Looking for the love that I didn’t have for myself. Needless to say that search went on infinitely. It resulted in me kissing a lot of frogs and a bad after taste in my mouth. “Life is what you make it.”

Life is pretty difficult for people with low self-esteem. Their usually depress and can’t see the positives in life. World fitters “seize the day carpe diem.” Don’t let your size define your life. Lose the low self-esteem and found your-self. Get to know yourself intimately. What would you say to your younger self? Would your younger self be proud of the person you have become?

For instance You Tube had asked me a couple of months ago to do a “Dear Me” video. I happily accepted of course. “Dear Me” is a self reflection video. It’s about what your older self want to say to your younger self? Below is my “Dear Me” video and a poem I wanted to share. Sharing is caring!

Love thy self.

Make love to thy self.

Look in the mirror.

Look at your beautiful eyes.

The eyes are the mirror to your soul.

I look at your soul.

It looks so empty.

When you cry. Scatter

Pieces of your soul splatter on the ground.

Like a life size puzzle.

All the events of your life scatter every which way.

Not knowing where to turn.

Turn to me my darling.

Come to me.

Let me brush away your tears.

Kissing them gently away.

Caressing you gently in my arms.

Brushing away strands of hair.

I reach down and kiss you.

Suddenly our body begin to merge together.

Two hearts become one.

We are one.

I love you.

World fitters! I hope you enjoy this post. My name is Francesca Etheart. That was “My Life My Story.”

Smiling through life!

 

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8 thoughts on “My Life My Story”

  1. Hello Francesca,
    I really enjoyed your post. You speak right from the heart and what you talk about so many people have to live with everyday just like you. Your heart is certainly going to get you a lot of respect.

    As someone who is also overweight, I know how hard it is to go through life. Especially when you have people telling you what they think is best for you. I don’t think I have ever had a negative view about how I look or my weight because I just don’t care what people think. I was training once for a 5k and this car full of skinny girls came up along side me and they shouted horrible things at me. Never stopped me from running. Don’t let all the negative words, especially the ones in your head, stop you.

    1. Hello Jessica! I’m glad you enjoyed my post! I’m sorry to hear that people have been saying mean things to you about your weight. People could be so cruel sometimes! I definitely know how you feel. As growing up I was skinny! Putting on weight people were very harsh to me. I wasn’t really expecting that. The reason I created this website is to encourage people to love their body. A website where you can get the support that you need.

      Yes I do speak from the heart! I have a big heart and wanted people to see that through my site! Some sites seem as if it is run by a robot. I wanted people to know there is a real person behind this web-site.

      I’m very happy you haven’t been letting peoples negative words affect you! Though sometimes it can be hard! You let one word slip by and then the next one comes. Thank you! I’ll try to not let them get to me. But sometimes like you say I’m my worst enemy!

      Thank you so much for your nice comment! Come Back Soon! Bye!

  2. I know how hard it is when you are suffering from low self esteem. Even if I’d tell you, just from what I’ve seen you are very physically attractive (not hitting on you, just being honest), people with low self esteem will have hard time believing it. I myself have gone through bad depression in the past and gone through periods of low self esteem but eventually overcame and came out the other side of the fence. Keep doing your thing and if you need any uplifting messages, just feel free to hit up my website. I’m not trying to promote my website but I’m hoping maybe some of my posts may give you some boost if you ever need one. Mainly it’s about my story and how I over came a lot of struggles and what I do to keep developing myself and help others into becoming better people. Good luck on your journey! And wish you a bright future!

  3. Hello Joon! Thank you so much for your encouraging words. You are absolutely correct! Even if you tell me how attractive I’m. That wont boost my self-esteem. The only person that can help build my self-esteem is myself. I’m currently working on it. But old habits die hard!

    However I’m happy to hear that you’ve over come your own bout of low self-esteem. Now you have the opportunity to reach your full potential! I hope your doing just that!

    Thank you Joon! I will keep doing just what I’m doing! I will tell my story so that I can help someone who is going through the same thing! I’m also wishing you a happy and bright future!

    PS: I’ll check you website out! Thanks for your support!

  4. Hey there Francesca, I totally understand how you feel because I too suffer from low self esteem.

    It comes down to how much you give a crap about what other people think. I notice that people with high self esteem aren’t arrogant or conceited, they just don’t care as much what other people think about them. Everybody else is too busy thinking about themselves, nobody is ridiculing you as much as you think they are.

    I also believe the way to overcome low self esteem is to just change your thoughts. Thoughts become reality and so change your thoughts and you change your reality.

    1. Hello Kent!

      I absolutely agree that if I change my thinking then I will change my life. I’m happy to say that I’ve done just that. I no longer am suffering from a low self esteem I love myself now. Not only do I love myself I also have a lot of respect for all that I’ve been through in my life. I know that no one just wakes up one day and say that they gonna hate themselves, no of course not. People have a low view of themselves because of various occurrences in their life and I’m no different. Right now I’m not worry so much about what others think of me because no one is perfect, we all have issues. I’m going to use this web-blog to help others love themselves at any size. Thank you for your words of encouragement have a great day.

      Francesca

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